So I am back in Davis. Gross. I had a cool wonderful weekend. I hanged out with the special girlfriends and the regular group. Gosh i really like being home. I hate Davis. Everyone in Davis is gay. All they care about is partying. So I unpacked everything already and now I'm sitting here writing a blog. Everytime I'm back in Davis, I have this grumpy feeling. I just end up thinking about...my life here and my life back home. I messed up my chances for things here. I went to college for COLLEGE. Then I fucking messed it up my first year. I'm doing fine now, but I know for a fact I could have done way better. Stupid things got in the way, but it's okay. I learned from it and know that it won't happen again. I really can't wait till the day I graduate. Once I graduate, I can escape. I don't hate Davis itself, I like the college. I just really despise what I got myself into. And I really don't care if people "talk" they need to grow up if they do. I don't know about them, but I know I came here not to be in anything intentionally but just to be a student. I am speaking my honest truth, and I know it could be offensive. I just wish I could rewind and be smarter. I really can pick out the things I need in my life. I mean yeh, I met some pretty cool people up here that I really like. No regrets in meeting them at all, but I know that they are just my college friends. I don't really think I'm going to keep in touch with anyone here after I graduate. Only very few people that probably going to be in my life after. I am totally fine with that because I already have my special girlfriends back home, my boyfriend, friends, and my family. That's all I really need. I'm a person where I like to keep it close within people. I don't like large groups of supposedly "friends" or whatever. I keep it to a few. No doubt, I've known these people really long. My girlfriends, I grew up them, friends ever since we were like what, 5 years old? My boyfriend, (Vu) I've been with him for like 3 years and 8 months. My friends, been friends with them for a couple of years. My family, well i only like my parents and my OLDEST sister. because they are the only ones i count as family.
blahhhhh. everytime i come back to Davis.
i want to go back home and be there forever.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Friday, April 4, 2008
The Same Day
This post is the same day but i just happen to write it pass 12am. I am also not feeling grumpy anymore. I feel normal. So today i woke up at 6:40am because i had a wonderful biology lab at 7:30am-10:20am. Lab was interesting. I like these labs a lot better then chemistry labs. Even though for biology, we do take up the whole 3 hours or so but its more interesting. This is the first week of school and we learned about biodiversity. It's funny in lab because there's only 9 students. Usually there's about 24-28 students, but sadly nobody wanted such an early lab time. I either had the choice of really early, or really late. I rather choose early because it's my only class on thursday. I can just go home and take a nap after im done with lab. For lab my group went to the Greenhouse to collect 8 samples of different parts of the environment. We had to find the number of species and stuff. The Greenhouse was so humid. I thought i was going to faint. Then after that we did all these calculations and drew an exponential graph. Lab wasn't too bad. My lab mates were interesting people. Well i was the only girl but that's okay. Not many girls in the morning or something. Our TA for lab was so nice. He bought us strawberries, coffee, and cookies. What kind of TA does that for their students? I'm glad i have him. I usually have fob TA's. I had fob ones for my chemistry labs, and my first bio discussion for the first series. (im on 2ndpart of the series now) I had a white TA for my chem2c lab, and now i have a white one for bis2b! White TA's are nice. The fob ones were nice too (because they couldn't speak english), except my bio one. He was so strict, and half the time, i didn't know what he was explaining. I think i really like my classes this quarter. The only class i don't like is my organic chemistry class. The Professor is really weird. He laughs and giggles to himself. When he talks, his words are all mushed up and overlapping each other so i don't understand him. My english teacher is really enthusiastic. I like her, i think she's cute. I have a feeling i will learn alot from her. My calculus professor is cute too. He's this little old man that looks like Santa Claus.
I've also been going to the ARC to work out with Tammy. I know, how surprising right? I'm actually working out. I just feel so out of shape and all jiggly. Hopefully i can keep up this good schedule. I actually feel better about myself now. I'm being more organize and learning to manage my time better. I wished i started off like this, but i sadly i started off in a pile of mess, but i guess mistakes are for the better sometimes. Learning from mistakes are, i guess you can say, the best way to learn? Gosh i have a retarded schedule tomorrow. I have this 5 hour gap. Oh well, hopefully i can utilize my time in between those hours. I usually sit around and do nothing. I feel much better about myself. Since I also put alot of thought into what I've been thinking about lately. I think I know who's who now. I don't think I will care much about what's not important to me, and who matters to me and who doesn't. I am my very own person. I belong to nobody but myself. I get to decide who to keep and who to let go. I feel so much better now. Maybe I sound crazy because earlier I was venting about annoying things, but that's okay because people have their bad days and their good days. Who doesn't vent about things that irritates them? I feel better now.
Tomorrow I am going home. YES! i am so happy. Ngoc is taking me back home. I was suppose to go to the Lambda party with Tammy and Ngoc but i decided i didn't want to because Tammy was going to sleep over Ngoc's house so nobody could take me back to my apartment. But in all good use of time, I did my english assignments, AND i finish my 2nd pre-lab for biology! Gosh im such a good student now =) Lab isn't until next thursday! But its pre-lab is due every Monday at 9am, but i finished it. I have more free time for the weekend. I'm so happy. okay that's all i have to say. Goodbye!
I've also been going to the ARC to work out with Tammy. I know, how surprising right? I'm actually working out. I just feel so out of shape and all jiggly. Hopefully i can keep up this good schedule. I actually feel better about myself now. I'm being more organize and learning to manage my time better. I wished i started off like this, but i sadly i started off in a pile of mess, but i guess mistakes are for the better sometimes. Learning from mistakes are, i guess you can say, the best way to learn? Gosh i have a retarded schedule tomorrow. I have this 5 hour gap. Oh well, hopefully i can utilize my time in between those hours. I usually sit around and do nothing. I feel much better about myself. Since I also put alot of thought into what I've been thinking about lately. I think I know who's who now. I don't think I will care much about what's not important to me, and who matters to me and who doesn't. I am my very own person. I belong to nobody but myself. I get to decide who to keep and who to let go. I feel so much better now. Maybe I sound crazy because earlier I was venting about annoying things, but that's okay because people have their bad days and their good days. Who doesn't vent about things that irritates them? I feel better now.
Tomorrow I am going home. YES! i am so happy. Ngoc is taking me back home. I was suppose to go to the Lambda party with Tammy and Ngoc but i decided i didn't want to because Tammy was going to sleep over Ngoc's house so nobody could take me back to my apartment. But in all good use of time, I did my english assignments, AND i finish my 2nd pre-lab for biology! Gosh im such a good student now =) Lab isn't until next thursday! But its pre-lab is due every Monday at 9am, but i finished it. I have more free time for the weekend. I'm so happy. okay that's all i have to say. Goodbye!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Irritating Types of People
I get irritated when:
1. When someone is so shady. its soo annoying. Like honestly, i think it's so stupid if you charge people for stupid things and you guys are family. What family member charges prices for each other? i know im not like that. I don't charge for eggs or bread or whatever. That's stupid. If i bought it, then i bought it and they can have some. Its also stupid how if you're family, you can't even wait for one another to get out of class to go home. I know many people that would wait, but some people are just so damn selfish and they won't even wait for their own siblings. it's fucking stupid. Making other people like their boyfriend having to drive UP to davis, pick me up, then drive back. It's unecessary and a fucking waste of gas money. WHO FUCKING DOES THAT? if i had a little sister, i'd wait for her. If i buy food, i'd let them have some without charging money. Especially because this doesn't happen ONCE, it ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPEN. gosh that's shady. SHADY. i hate shadyass family members.
2. I hate people who don't know their priorities. I know everyone has their own individual priorities, but some people SERIOUSLY needs to know which ones will benefit them in the future, and which ones that won't. i mean its cool to have a good experience in college, but seriously, FOCUS on school and graduate. What's the point of going to college if you're just going to fuck up and put other things first. Things that take up your whole damn time. Sorry, but YOU AREN'T my priority and will never ever be. You are like this annoyingass boyfriend i have in davis that expects me to be there for everything. Get your shit straight you dumb fuck up.
3. People who talk to me ONLY when they have problems in their life. Don't talk to me if you're going to just ramble about yourself. it's stupid and it's not bonding time, and its NOT CATCHING UP EITHER. It's just talking about yourself. People who ramble on about their problems, and then when you say something about your problems, they would be like "lol" or they don't answer unless you ask them something about themselves. It's stupid how SO MANY people are like that. it's fucking annoying. It's always about "me me me me me" shut up. i don't even want to talk to them. So sorry if this relates to anyone that i talk to. I think it's just selfish of a person to do that because there's no point in being there for someone if they can't do the same to you. So please, don't talk to me until you're ready to be CONSIDERATE BACK.
4. People who ONLY think having fun involves drinking, clubbing, etc. There are other ways to have fun. If you have fun drinking, clubbing, drugs or whatever, then thats YOUR own personal enjoyment, for some others it might not be the same. People who think blah blah doesn't know how to have fun because they don't party or whatever the fuck doesn't mean they are boring. It's means they find OTHER ways to have fun. If the other person finds that stuff boring, then don't do it. Go party or whatever you need to TO have fun. the definition of fun isn't define as "drinking, clubbing, drugs, etc." FUN can be referred to as ANYTHING. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU ANNOYINGASS FAG CLUB PROMOTERS. GO FIND A REAL JOB, instead of a job where you wear skankyass clothes that looks fucking ugly because some of you guys are fat. And seriously, you are NOT cool as you think you are. GROW THE FUCK UP.
Thats all. yeh im having a grumpy day but i don't care. Because those things are soo irritating. I know im NOT the only one that feels this way. And if this offends some of you guys, it must be perhaps that you find some guilt in what im saying because you could be in some part of this. maybe i am referring to a certain group of people are "person." or i could be generalizing it. It doesn't matter because i said what was annoying, and it's always been annoying to me.
1. When someone is so shady. its soo annoying. Like honestly, i think it's so stupid if you charge people for stupid things and you guys are family. What family member charges prices for each other? i know im not like that. I don't charge for eggs or bread or whatever. That's stupid. If i bought it, then i bought it and they can have some. Its also stupid how if you're family, you can't even wait for one another to get out of class to go home. I know many people that would wait, but some people are just so damn selfish and they won't even wait for their own siblings. it's fucking stupid. Making other people like their boyfriend having to drive UP to davis, pick me up, then drive back. It's unecessary and a fucking waste of gas money. WHO FUCKING DOES THAT? if i had a little sister, i'd wait for her. If i buy food, i'd let them have some without charging money. Especially because this doesn't happen ONCE, it ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPEN. gosh that's shady. SHADY. i hate shadyass family members.
2. I hate people who don't know their priorities. I know everyone has their own individual priorities, but some people SERIOUSLY needs to know which ones will benefit them in the future, and which ones that won't. i mean its cool to have a good experience in college, but seriously, FOCUS on school and graduate. What's the point of going to college if you're just going to fuck up and put other things first. Things that take up your whole damn time. Sorry, but YOU AREN'T my priority and will never ever be. You are like this annoyingass boyfriend i have in davis that expects me to be there for everything. Get your shit straight you dumb fuck up.
3. People who talk to me ONLY when they have problems in their life. Don't talk to me if you're going to just ramble about yourself. it's stupid and it's not bonding time, and its NOT CATCHING UP EITHER. It's just talking about yourself. People who ramble on about their problems, and then when you say something about your problems, they would be like "lol" or they don't answer unless you ask them something about themselves. It's stupid how SO MANY people are like that. it's fucking annoying. It's always about "me me me me me" shut up. i don't even want to talk to them. So sorry if this relates to anyone that i talk to. I think it's just selfish of a person to do that because there's no point in being there for someone if they can't do the same to you. So please, don't talk to me until you're ready to be CONSIDERATE BACK.
4. People who ONLY think having fun involves drinking, clubbing, etc. There are other ways to have fun. If you have fun drinking, clubbing, drugs or whatever, then thats YOUR own personal enjoyment, for some others it might not be the same. People who think blah blah doesn't know how to have fun because they don't party or whatever the fuck doesn't mean they are boring. It's means they find OTHER ways to have fun. If the other person finds that stuff boring, then don't do it. Go party or whatever you need to TO have fun. the definition of fun isn't define as "drinking, clubbing, drugs, etc." FUN can be referred to as ANYTHING. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU ANNOYINGASS FAG CLUB PROMOTERS. GO FIND A REAL JOB, instead of a job where you wear skankyass clothes that looks fucking ugly because some of you guys are fat. And seriously, you are NOT cool as you think you are. GROW THE FUCK UP.
Thats all. yeh im having a grumpy day but i don't care. Because those things are soo irritating. I know im NOT the only one that feels this way. And if this offends some of you guys, it must be perhaps that you find some guilt in what im saying because you could be in some part of this. maybe i am referring to a certain group of people are "person." or i could be generalizing it. It doesn't matter because i said what was annoying, and it's always been annoying to me.
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